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i just love it!

i have a confession to make.
no, not some deep, dark secret that might titillate.
perhaps not even a very interesting one.
i love homeschooling my kids!

it’s something i’ve done for almost the entire thirty some odd years that i’ve been a parent.
of course, every kid’s first teacher is their parent or parents. from us they learn how to talk, we help them take their first steps when they begin to walk. we thrill when they can parrot the abc’s or some nursery rhyme we’ve recited too many times for sanity.

but beyond this, it is really something special for me to learn new ways to present a lesson or concept to my special little pupils.

that’s the way i see it. i do not so much ‘teach’ them, as learn how to help them to learn.

i have always told my kids that i would never require them to learn anything that they wont need in life. through the years of helping one daughter learn until she went to live with her father, then the next one right up until she graduated high school and now helping ziona, i have kept my promise. i never required them to learn something that they wouldn’t absolutely need in life.

so i dont teach the usual ‘american history’ lies that if someday they go to college they will just have to unlearn to accommodate the truth of the matter. it isn’t the ‘oh weren’t the settlers to the new world brave’ but ‘isn’t it tragic about the resulting culture clash and near genocide of the tribes of the western hemisphere upon the influx of europeans’.

of course reading and math are no brainers. because one will need them for sure as the world becomes more and more their plaything. but i teach all the shortcuts and methods that make rote memorization unnecessary; the methods i used myself while driving the teachers crazy in grade school.

teacher: “i can see that you got the right answer, but you HAVE to show your work”
me: “but my way is easier and gets the same answer”
teacher: “it’s called long division” -(probably swearing under her breath) “so do it the way you’ve been taught!”

with ziona i have learned even more about how to help someone to learn.

for science we do all kinds of experiments and watch lots of national geographic and other videos to make the concepts real.

music and art are hands on and are treated as more important than history.

we read books that she wants to read, not the ones on some list. so it’s a lot of r.l. stine spooky books, or scooby doo funny ones. still she reads. and as time goes forward, her choice of reading materials will mature and reflect her own special interests. no doubt archeology will be among them, as this is a favorite already.

here’s the thing. with every child i have had to learn a new and specialised way to get ‘in’ to their space, new ways to tailor old concepts to each one’s individual and unique way of thinking. and because of this, i learn and relearn every thing i teach.

so a bit of creativity is involved, especially in teaching ziona, who besides being transgender is also on the autism spectrum. a very high functioning girl but one with a very low tolerance for frustration.

as a poet, and an artist the demand for this creativity, for having to bend my mind around hers and think differently so as to know how to present something, is fulfilling. very fulfilling!

so here i am, a fifty-six year old grandmother, raising an eight year old transgender child who has autism…talk about teaching an old dog new tricks!

in the end, it is she who is helping ME to learn really!

and i just love homeschooling!

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islamophobia has disinformation in part to blame

this was posted to a site where i post poetry at times…it was in the forums sections which
often have ignorant opinions of people who post there.

i think it should go without saying that the whole post is xenophobic, utter nonsense and scare doctrine. which the person posting suggests should be passed along.

is it any wonder americans are easy to convince that islam and muslims are kill-worthy? with such shit flowing about the internet and elsewhere, it should be no great surprise that some of the sheeple are more than willing to hate!


In the Muslim faith a Muslim man can marry a child as young as 1 year
old and have sexual intimacy with this child. Consummating the
marriage by 9. The dowry is given to the family in exchange for the
woman (who becomes his slave) and for the purchase of the private
parts of the woman, to use her as a toy.

Even though a woman is abused she can not obtain a divorce. To prove
rape, the woman must have (4) male witnesses. Often after a woman has
been raped, she is returned to her family and the family must return
the dowry. The family has the right to execute her (an honor killing)
to restore the honor of the family. Husbands can beat their wives ‘at
will’ and he does not have to say why he has beaten her.

The husband is permitted to have (4 wives) and a temporary wife for an
hour (prostitute) at his discretion.

The Shariah Muslim law controls the private as well as the public life
of the woman.

In the West World ( America ) Muslim men are starting to demand
Shariah Law so the wife can not obtain a divorce and he can have full
and complete control of her. It is amazing and alarming how many of
our sisters and daughters attending American Universities are now
marrying Muslim men and submitting themselves and their children
unsuspectingly to the Shariah law.

By passing this on, enlightened American women may avoid becoming a
slave under Shariah Law. Ripping the West in Two. Author and lecturer
Nonie Darwish says the goal of radical Islamists is to impose Shariah
law on the world, ripping Western law and liberty in two. She recently
authored the book, Cruel and Usual Punishment: The Terrifying Global
Implications of Islamic Law.

Darwish was born in Cairo and spent her childhood in Egypt and Gaza
before immigrating to America in 1978, when she was eight years old.
Her father died while leading covert attacks on Israel . He was a
high-ranking Egyptian military officer stationed with his family in
Gaza .

When he died, he was considered a “shahid,” a martyr for jihad. His
posthumous status earned Nonie and her family an elevated position in
Muslim society.

But Darwish developed a skeptical eye at an early age. She questioned
her own Muslim culture and upbringing.. She converted to Christianity
after hearing a Christian preacher on television.

In her latest book, Darwish warns about creeping sharia law – what it
is, what it means, and how it is manifested in Islamic countries.

For the West, she says radical Islamists are working to impose sharia
on the world. If that happens, Western civilization will be destroyed.
Westerners generally assume all religions encourage a respect for the
dignity of each individual. Islamic law (Sharia) teaches that
non-Muslims should be subjugated or killed in this world.

Peace and prosperity for one’s children is not as important as
assuring that Islamic law rules everywhere in the Middle East and
eventually in the world.

While Westerners tend to think that all religions encourage some form
of the golden rule, Sharia teaches two systems of ethics – one for
Muslims and another for non-Muslims Building on tribal practices of
the seventh century, Sharia encourages the side of humanity that wants
to take from and subjugate others.

While Westerners tend to think in terms of religious people developing
a personal understanding of and relationship with God, Sharia
advocates executing people who ask difficult questions that could be
interpreted as criticism.

It’s hard to imagine, that in this day and age, Islamic scholars agree
that those who criticize Islam or choose to stop being Muslim should
be executed. Sadly, while talk of an Islamic reformation is common and
even assumed by many in the West, such murmurings in the Middle East
are silenced through intimidation.

While Westerners are accustomed to an increase in religious tolerance
over time, Darwish explains how petro dollars are being used to grow
an extremely intolerant form of political Islam in her native Egypt
and elsewhere.

(In twenty years there will be enough Muslim voters in the U.S. to
elect the President by themselves! Rest assured they will do so… You
can look at how they have taken over several towns in the USA ..
Dearborn Mich. is one… and there are others…)

I think everyone in the U.S. should be required to read this, but with
the ACLU, there is no way this will be widely publicized, unless each
of us sends it on!

It is too bad that so many are disillusioned with life and
Christianity to accept Muslims as peaceful.. some may be but they have
an army that is willing to shed blood in the name of Islam.. the
peaceful support the warriors with their finances and own kind of
patriotism to their religion. While America is getting rid of
Christianity from all public sites and erasing God from the lives of
children the Muslims are planning a great jihad on America ….

This is your chance to make a difference…! Pass it on to your email
list or at least those you think will listen..

Some of those I’m sending it to WILL NOT! Put your head back under the
covers so you can’t see the boogie man!


anyone who is passed along so called information about another culture would do well to investigate for themselves whether or not the ‘truths’ offered have any resemblance to fact!

don’t be a fool!

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how could they?!

this is not going to be a very enlightened piece.
fair warning to anyone who may actually read these blogs.
what follows is merely an angry rant about things that have been
happening in my personal life. not to me, or i’d not need
to write about it here or anywhere else.
i would simply confront whomsoever had wronged me and make my mind be known.

this is about despicable things done to my mom by people who
owe her everything, including their very existence.

recently my mother has had to declare bankruptcy.
having lived her seventy-four years without needing to do so,
even when she divorced the man who had abandoned her with seven kids.
she always managed her life and finances with exceptional grace.

but then came the eldest daughter of her youngest daughter.

nesi, who works at a bank, convinced my mother to co-sign for various
big expenditures on her behalf.
my mom helped her out.
but enough was never enough.
nesi, my mom’s own granddaughter, kept coming back for more.
and my mom, who wanted to help her, shelled out money, and used her own
exemplary credit to help her acquire these things.
in addition, my mom took care of nesi’s children so that she could go out.
helped pay for daycare for them.

but nesi didn’t keep up with the payments for the nice things, so the
creditors came to my mom, who began to give nesi money to make the payments
just to keep them away and to keep up the credit rating she’d acquired.
nesi, took the money but didn’t use it to pay off the bills that led the
creditors to my mom. no, no, no. she used it to pay off the ones that
kept herself in the clear instead.

so, fifty thousand dollars later, nesi informs my mom that she is going to
declare bankruptcy, which left the entirety of the debt to my mom.

my mom, lives on a small fixed income that comes from social security benefits
left her by the death of her husband. the only reason she’d helped nesi in the
first place is that nesi makes good money at the bank. she’s a manager!

so now my mom has declared bankruptcy. to do so she had to clear her meager
bank account, and will lose her car. she also had to lie just a little bit, to
protect another daughter, my sister, jude, who lives on land she is buying
from my mom. although the title has been in jude’s name for years, technically
she hasn’t paid it off, and my mom depends upon the three hundred dollars per
month that they’d agreed together that jude would pay.

it was bad enough that nesi lied repeatedly to my mom about paying the debts
for which my mother would be responsible otherwise. and bad enough that because
she wouldn’t do so, my mom had to do the whole legal bankruptcy thing.
but then, jude tries to blackmail our mother into forgiving the rest of the
interest on the debt for the land she is buying, insinuating that since the
title is already in her name, there would be nothing my mom could do about it
if she didn’t pay her any longer.

what the fucking hell is wrong with people!

i have been a junkie, and done some unfortunate things to get money for my drugs.
but even in the throes of my most addicted moments, i could NEVER have brought
myself to steal from people i loved, from people who had helped me out, or even
just people who have trusted me.

i want to slap both nesi and jude right across the face! i want to scream at them.
but it wouldn’t satisfy me. i know that. because what i really want to do is
figure out, to somehow wrap my head around what the fuck sort of dysfunction
they suffer that allows them to screw over someone as awesome as my mom!

i warned you.
not a thing of value.
not a single gem of enlightenment.
nor an insight into human nature or my own even.
just a great big ‘how could they?!’